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life selfchecking
| I'm making more money than ever before in my life but I don't have any energy to spend it. My friends never do anything unless I initiate the get togethers so once I get tired of that I'll probably just be alone. Money really doesn't bring happiness does it...
| Well I have no money and no energy so I guess I'm just dead
| tired and in pain from working too hard T-T
| i tink im becoumin an alcoholic ^~^
| I woke up irritated today and haven't been able to shake it all day.
Got a couple hours before I can head back home and idk. I'm not tired but I'll probably pick up some sleeping pills and seek a good 7 hours of oblivion.
| A piece of software made me want to hang myself.
| Like, isn't that cringe?
| I found not one person but two people who I can talk about my mental health with and I love it
| >>969220 I'm in a similar situation. I don't feel motivated most of the time. Let's hope that summer vacation helps.
| I'm stressing myself out too much thinking about my job. I think I need an extra day off this weekend.
| I'm planning to end it all on the 20th, but prolly i wont even try coz im a coward.
| I want to fucking die
| Lay of the co(k/m)e
| I'm not doing too well tbh. Back in 2020 I contacted the psychiatric care and was met with the most horrible and prejudiced people I have ever encountered. They really did a number on me. It turned out that a former acquaintance who I haven't seen in 4 years talked shit about me before he killed himself and these doctors believed everything he said to the point of even ignoring evidience of the contrary. They genuinely hated me before they ever even met me wtf.
| It took me over 2½ years of fighting a state-owned behemoth to reach some resemblance of justice but I'm all out of steam. I got nothing out of it myself, quite the contrary, but at least they won't be able to hurt any more patients though. I always told myself that I'll be the last one they treat this way because no one deserves to go trough the hell that I've been going trough these last 3 years.
| I am now broken, pitiful and hateful but at least I keep my chin up and my head above the water. I know I'm gonna turn out fine in the end but right now I really need a hug and some headpats.
| I'm sad and lonely and I want a cat
| look i know your doing gods work and all however when you picked a fight with the "behemoth" did you not expect it to be tough? its like asking for the impossible challenge then saying its too tough
| Hey guy's! Random soul chiming in to let you know that you are a valuable being on this earth and whatever you're going through will end and you deserve to be here. You are thought about and cared for by someone everyday. Keep living and god bless.
| i used to have diet moodswings where sometimes i ate only meat/veggies for a day or two
| i still do
| Honestly I just wish there was more time in the day. I've got a lot of shit to do, and some days I wish I had 10 more hours in the day to do it all. I don't mind work, but it takes up so much time...
| >>969440
Hmm? It wasn't the "fight" that broke me. It was their abusive behavior, dishonesty and attempts at gaslighting that wore me down. And the injustice of it all and how _no one_ seemed to care. I'm not sure I understand your question but yeah of course I was aware of how tough it was, but that didn't matter. This was a problem that had to be fixed and I had a unique insight into how they operate so yeah I felt like I was perhaps the only one that could take the fight.
| I mean, we're talking about an invisible problem that kills innocent people —all young men btw— by driving depressed/suicidal young men to suicide and _no one_ seemed to care and/or understand that it was happening.
It's also hard to talk about because it's a topic shizoids likes to rave about, so chances are you're not being taken seriously unless you have hard proof, such as the recordings I made during my visits. If I didn't start to record every visit I wouldn't have been here
| I'm sick and on a penicillin cure so hurty body and stuff, but for the most part I'm doing well. Working on moving to a better apartment and being a good little housewife
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| how are you all doing?
I feel sort of heavy and it's hard to focus when feeling tired, it's probably a mix of overdoing it and not recovering.
keep it simple