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I feel dead
| Humanity should just blow up and die, it will put bad people in their place and the take the innocent out of their misery of living, why exist in such terrible conditions for the mind an body? Why love if it just open us up to an eventual suffering for others?
I lived my live believing that good actions and character would allow me to at least not be fucked over without reason but that is simply not true.
| People will lie, steal and cheat independent of if they need to do it or not, as long as it doesn't effect their lives in a negative manner.
Real friends, mutual apreciation, unconditional love, those are all stuff I've never seen, there is always, bs, always a trick and when you think you are at a good spot, reality just crashes down, no how much I lower my standards, it always gets worse, even if you try your best.
| Tl;dr: I just wish I could grow up, have a family and a realitively stable life but both people and my lack of luck are saying no.
| yeah me too gurl
| >take the innocent out of their misery of living
i appreciate the sentiment, but please at least wait until I have time to play the rest of deltarune before blowing me up. <3
| skill issue
git gud
| Jump
| I'd blow OP.
| just get into religion. you're in the right alley, you won't feel anymore pain if you'd implement it into your life.
| What the fuck is up with all this emo posting lately? Since when did this site turn into livejournal...
For fuck's sake, stop feeling sorry for yourselves and stop whining so much. It's time to grew up, wtf.
| >>902744 no, religion is not for me, if god exists then they are either not all powerful or bassically the biggest asshole to ever exist
| Just go get a new pet...
Your rant about humanity is only there because you have too much free time. Once you get a family or job, you won't care about john who scams people and get away with no consequences; or jane who is sold into prostitution ring because both of them doesn't stop you from going to your day job.
| >>902840 a bunch of shit happened this year nd I think thats what has been taking a tool on me.
My aunt wanted to rebuild our grandmas house but after the foundation was set, the company scamed us ran away with the money, which sucks since we need to get the money back and then continue, I even gave up some of my college funds to help out.
I lost my friends in class too because they are self centered idiots who think I can take their bs but when I bring my own then I'm the bad.
| Sucks too because I got my pets this year, and they were young, they are an emotinal crutch and an outlet for my need to care for someone, I really loved them yet life took away what was given to me in the first place.
The husband of one of my aunts also cheated on her and thinks it was her fault, and god that makes me seeth, the guy was in my life for 10 years, had a good marrige and family, but all it took was a blond chick at a bar, fuck him
| And I liked him too, he participated in my life yet he just did what he did ans feels no remorse.
And overall Im just lonely, Ive yet to find a lasting relationship of any kind, by friends or romance, it's always been disapointments, betrayals, and Ive never even got beyong a simple kiss despite being a an adult.
It sucks cuz Im trying to improve but everyone around me is so shity that it demotivates me
| Why improve for the sake of those shitheads, I'm already an abive average person in many aspects but somehow thats not enough? What is wrong with people, why do they want more from me when they cant do better?
| (Still OP) And you know what? I'm a shitty person too, I just try to do something about it.
I have anxiety, spent a year as a neet, dropped out of high school for 3 months due to depression, I do have a silly and aloof sense of humor and into lot of nieche stuff, I can be very much annoying or inconvenient, doesn't help that I have communication issues due to being bullied a lot.
But I'm not violent, I don't judge too much, I like to help people and I try my best to improve.
| Try sex
| >>902650 it's simple. You just need to study currently. It's definitely a path that you've chosen to commit into and have some buildup interest for, so why are you in doubt? You're just getting weight down by superficial stuffs. As long as you'll learn something that'll be worth enough to make a living you'll be fine.
Add slowly also some communicative abilities so you'll less likely become doomed to repeat the isolated arc, just remember to keep your boundaries as you improve.
| >>903062 I wish I had to just study, the economy here is fucked, presidential elections are causing a divide despite both candidates being crappy thieves and it's not like science is seen as noble to beging with here, so finding a job that isnt being an underpaid techer is going to be hard and more luck based, unless I somehow go from above average student to genious over achiever
| But yeah I should still improve in communications
| >>903181 you said it yourself, if both candidate is crappy, then why should you care, since whoever wins will be a shit leader anyways.
| >>903184 its not that I cara which one wins, I care for the country, we have multiple parties yet people seem to vote for the 2 populist candidates, 7 candidates and over 85% was just for the 2 guys who have criminal allegations and were part os some of the biggest money laundry schemes.
And I dont even have the resources to move to another country, so I'm stuck in this hellhole with people who clearly dont know what to do.
| >>903019 Think this way: your uncle probably cheated a lot more. He just happen to get caught this time.
| why is all of your problems related to your aunt
| >>903030
Embrace being a shitty person. Be more selfish. Indulge in what interests you, and if you don't find someone, so what?
| >>907237 if you ignore the lost pet, rejections, being lonely, the loss of a chunk of my college funds, bad economy, the terrible people, my own lack of social skills and bad luck, yeah it sure seems that everything else is related to my aunt huh
| >>907323 meh, I've tried, but it just felt wrong, I didn't feel like myself, as if I was being mean fpr the sake ot it, instead of a genuine disinterest, I like being polite, feels good.
What doesn't feel good is when somebody makes up beef with you and treats you poorly despite never even talking to the person and then having them spread shit about you for no other reason than "it's enterteining"
| I want friendship and mutual interest, but all I get are self absorbed idiot who demand constant ball licking and enterteinment and then cut you off the moment you do anythng they deem inconvinient.
Since when do people expect friends to be like that anyways? It feels lie people don't see eachother as people.
| >>e91af6
where are you in the world?
It sounds like you are surrounded by people who don't share your values and are in general having a hard time of life at the moment. But you aren't alone, and even though some of us may just be text on a screen, there are good people out there who care about you and want you to be happy.
| >>908269 well I'm south american, and more specifically from Brazil, things have been rough even in the more "rich parts" of the country, political division, poor economy folowed by corona etc.
Things here have been crappy for years and people in general have always been crappy, at least from personal experience, but it seems like as I grew it just got worse, not to say I hate my life, my family is still super cool and thank you for the kind words.
| It's just that, so much stuff that is completely out of my control, has been screwing me over when I'm just trying to get by.
I can't control, when some president does money laundry and fucks the economy but it still makes my life harder, nor control how kind the teacher is when grading my tests and projects, nor if the people around me have decent character, etc, and it's so frustrating.
| And this is why I said humanity should just blow up and die, life is unfair, but 70% of the time is just because somebody wasn't "feeling like doing it" and then fucks up the system for everybody around them.
Take ukraine for example, it's not like they did anything to directly or even indireclty harm russia, they just wanted to join NATO, which wouldn't be a problem to russia unless they were already planning to start something, war is fucking stupid but they still do it.
| Brazil is tough, but at least it's not China.
| >>912213 i'm glad so many female fetuses are aborted in china
can you imagine having to live there?
| the bad stuff makes the news, the good stuff doesn't. you get cynical with age, and making things better starts with you. unfortunately you can't control other people to be good.
also, there's the chance for cute BR g/u/rls to get out, as they are surprosingly attractive to the rest of the world.
| True dat, like, not even gonna complaim about my right, cuz I at least have those, I just want a good senate and president for my country.
| GET UP GET OUT
SHOW THE WORLD YOU WILL NEVER BE TAKEN DOWN
WELCOME CHALLENGE, DEFEAT ADVERSITY
CONQUER YOUR OWN LIFE AND CARVE YOUR PATH TO THE FUTURE
BE UNYIELDING
BE BRAVE
BE STRONG
YOU AND ONLY YOU CAN WRITE THE NEXT CHAPTER OF YOUR OWN STORY
YOUR FATE IS IN YOUR HANDS ONLY
SO GET UP AND SHOW THE WORLD YOU REFUSE TO BE DEFEATED
| -9
| I feel alive. And life is good for me.
OP, please stop talking on behalf of others. I want to live as much as I can in this blessed blue marble.
| why do humans have beliefs?
| when are we launching the danger/u/ dating site?
| >>926225 Imma just keep going forward, but I gotta say, the bit of "only you have control over your destiny" is bullshit, if a meteor falls, ww3 comes or Im killed during a robbery I can't do anything about it, I'm all for optmism but I can't bring myself to believe all that.
| >>926320 sorry if I came off as pretentious, I was just really stressed about a bunch of stuff happening.
>>926427 because we like consistency, instead of accepting and adapting to the world, we like to believe in set dogmas that keeps us safe or calm, nobody likes chaos but so we pretend that everything will be ok, its a lot simpler than always thinking about multiple bad scenarios and act beforehand.
| This is why no one is 100% evil, but also not 100% good, people just like to act on what seems the easiest and most convinient thing to do even if it does't actually fix stuff, the people who break that line are the ones who think before acting.
But that does't mean they are good, we can have kind idiots and mean geniouses, just like how we have kind geniouses and mean idiots, people are complicated.
| >>926721 I just wanna say, dating sites suck, but if it's anything like fakku dating it would at least be fun
| >>926767 It's okay OP. You were stressed after all, I understand...
But please mind your words a bit better next time, I believe in you.
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| Lost a pet recently and I am also an extremely lonely college student, currently struggling to find reasons to keep going.
I find myself basically being living corpse, going day in and day out to study for a future that I'm not even sure it's to be realized.
And every day I'm more dissapointed with the humanity, be it by dumb actions of close family and assumed friends or the constant bad decisions and mean demeanor from society and people who refuse to think about their actions.