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I wish I could put the cat back into the bag
| pushed away when I do. it's not just the being horny on main that makes me feel separated either, it's everything about the way I want to be around other people. I feel like I want to be closer to all my friends and I can't even bring up how far away and lonely I feel to them without being told "oh just get a boyfriend". because apparently a stupid heterosexual relationship with exactly one person is supposed to take care of all my emotional needs forever! but one: I wouldn't mind
| being in a relationship but I don't feel like I really want one enough to be specifically looking for it and two: how the fuck am I supposed to even talk to/meet new eligible bachelors when the only thing I have to talk about with other people right now is how awful I feel all the time??? but apparently I'm not allowed to have emotions and talk about them unless I have One Emotion Partner For Life and apparently I'm not allowed to be horny. it would be so much easier for me if the
| people I knew were a little more like the people on this board. but part of the people on this board being good for me to talk to is probably the anonymity. which of course is a problem the other way around where I can't get to know anyone because I can't talk to one person directly. I guess I wish that I could meet a person who was like an amalgamation of the parts people present in places like this. but if anything they probably wouldn't want anything to do with me wouldn't they.
| Obligatory “those aren’t friends” comment
| sorry for the awfully formatted depression post, i guess :(
| >>852000 but the thing that really makes me upset is that we WERE good friends before. and I could even be more open about things like this with these same fucking people!! but now they've all got other people who are more important to them than I am and I got left with nobody.
| Fuck them
| Free your mind.
| On the topic of "what is a friend", I used to have friends like that. Well now they are my collegemates. They aren't really friends, just people who I spent most time with in college.
But you know, that kinda thinking is depressing. Because by that logic I only have 1 friend. But in truth is I have 2 friends, or 3, or 5, or 8, or more. Depending on how I slice it.
| So at the end it's about what you really expect from your friends. If you expect them to understand everything, you're stuck with only yourself forever.
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| I feel like I'm the only one who ever has to hold their tongue around my friends. they say whatever they want and joke as much as they want about me being a sexual deviant/a weird kinky bitch but if I ever bring up something like that I get told that I'm making people uncomfortable. as a rule I feel like the annoying one in any situation now. I wish I had never let anybody know anything about what I'm actually like, I feel like I get