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I am now 25yo, feels heavry.
| Happy Birthday OP
| I cannot get over how cruel the reality is.
| I need smiling friends to show me the good sides
| I am now living just for the sake of living.
| On the bright side, you probably have a fully developed brain now. That's cool, right? Age often comes with more existential dread, but... welcome to the club :D
| I think your goal at this point is to create meaning in your life. It's not really something you can find, nor is it something that can be given. You must build it. One of the hardest truths to swallow is that no one is coming to save you. Good Samaritans exist, but you have to take the initiative. Start by giving yourself a purpose. Nothing grandiose. Once upon a time my purpose was simply caring for a kitten. But first, I had to care for myself. It put things in perspective.
| Time to figure out the why, once you do that nothing else matters and you will be able to sustain quite a bit.
| purpose gay
finding purpose is penultimate cope, proclamation of stagnation, end of evolution, setting camp out in the middle of metaphysical fucking nowhere surrounding yourself with meaningless symbolic shit and proclaiming it ""ril"" and ""vewy meaninful"". shits as real and meaningful as a kiddie teaparty is, matter the fact these sophisticated illusory linguistic walls we build up are the farthest thing from truth, and much closer to the fucking kindergarden than one thinks
| you dont n e e d to reinforce what youd call "real purpose" with this fucking melodramatic movie shit like looking at a mirror in the morning and telling yourself 'im ze best, <insert dumb shit> is whaet i doee', because *having* purpose brings the crystal clarity of *feeling* of purpose. which, unlike all this made up marketable souless yoga shit - is the realest fucking thing you can feel after amphetamine high.
| so id like yall socially dependent masochists to get yer asses out of yer heads space, and really fucking unthink all the dumb shit youve been fed over the years. dont even think a fucking word, especially ones coming from these ""self-growth"" and ""mindfullness"" shills. growth self a pair and fully mind your own fucking business you perpetually confused barely upstraight fooking calf
| the sheer fucking terror of looking into nothingness is the ""cure"" these compensating schmuks claim to have, dont be scared to lose your fucking mind, be scared of thinking you have one. or that you are *the* mind
| I wish I was 25 again lol
| >>e148bc presuming glowies could get me still enough for some charlatan to tell me what sort of shit i actually should get fucked up on AND give me an exact schedule when im to use my drugs. no thanks, i asked neither for a recommendation nor a permission, or a middleman to charge me for my shit
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