Loneliness vent, but not self-unaware doomer posting
Post number #831949, ID: 81431d
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I've been feeling really lonely lately. And, well, I know why. Almost all of my friends are super busy rn. School, work, personal stuff and other things. Basically, my loved ones are dealing with and handling a lot, and I'm the complete opposite rn.
And, it just hurts. Triggers memories and feelings from bavk when I was genuinely lonely after being abandoned and/or having to cut off most of my friends for various reasons. It's not their fault in the slightest of course.
Post number #831950, ID: 81431d
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It's not their fault that they're busy and have hectic lives rn. I mean, it's not even a choice on their part. It's that or don't survive for basically all of them. So, you know. It just kinda sucks that that's the type of headspace my brain drags me into while it's happening. Some of them I also can't, like, visit or anything because of both COVID and money, so, like, even if they had some time we'd only be able to call or something, which, like, it's something, but not the same.
Post number #831951, ID: 81431d
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So, idk. I've gotten pretty good at finding ways to keep my mood up and stay in an at least slightly manageable headspace during times where I'm lonely. But sometimes like rn it just really, really gets to me. My brain acting up and pulling out traumatic memories of traumatic times just adds to it too. Makes me feel kinda terrified tbh, even though I shouldn't be.
I know I'll be aight and I'll be aight and things will be aight. It's just hard to deal with that, like, dread rn.
Post number #831969, ID: 2c4d81
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Have sex and have fun.
Post number #831970, ID: 5dad7e
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VENT SUS
Post number #832280, ID: d42eb7
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I just make art and hope i find people with the same sensibilities.
Keep making them for the possibility but i don't expect anything. But overtime you can just channel being a loner and take the few interactions as they come. Or if you're lucky and some will want to reconnect but no guaranty.
Better to channel it to something external even if it's stupid. Dwell on it and it'll change you for the worst.
Post number #832281, ID: ac5a09
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>>832280 I do, I do. I put all my emotions and thoughts, good or bad, into my art. One of the main reasons why I'm sane.
I mean, it's not like I'm a loner loner so to speak. I do genuinely have a lot of close friends that I spend a lot of time with. It's just when schedules don't match and stuff or some are especially busy I feel really lonely, even if I hang out with some of them at least once or twice a week.
Agreed. That's why I avoid dwelling on it as much as I can.
Post number #832284, ID: 8cdff2
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If it makes you feel better op I have zero friends
Post number #832303, ID: ac5a09
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>>832284 Idk why that would make me feel better. Others being sad doesn't make me happy. That's a weird ass mindset. I hope you get some good ones some day soon.
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| I've been feeling really lonely lately. And, well, I know why.
Almost all of my friends are super busy rn. School, work, personal stuff and other things.
Basically, my loved ones are dealing with and handling a lot, and I'm the complete opposite rn.
And, it just hurts. Triggers memories and feelings from bavk when I was genuinely lonely after being abandoned and/or having to cut off most of my friends for various reasons. It's not their fault in the slightest of course.