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Non-verbal problems

| So, I'm autistic, and sometimes I go a little non-verbal, and it's really hard.
Most of my life I didn't know I was autistic, so just on instinct I kinda forced myself to act neurotypical and ignore all the weird things and problems that come sith autism (because I didn't know what it was) at the cost of my own health.

So now, the times where I get non-verbal, it's really challenging. I want to use an AAC or something, but starting with that now that I'm an adult wouldn't be easy.


| Because, you know. "You've never been like that before. That's weird." type stuff. Even though, well, I always have. It's just that when it's happened I've desperately avoided all human contact or forced myself to say a couple words despite doing so physically hurting and boosting my anxiety and depression and all that stuff to the max.

I want to still talk, but I have no way to, and people always downplay my autism related problems because "You've always been normal".


| So, idk. It's just hard. I wish people were more accepting with that stuff, and more knowledgeable too.
When I get those "episodes" so to speak it's really important for my health that I listen to my body.
Going against it is like twisting your ankle super bad and immediately going for a run. Is not good.

But, yeah. Idk. Idk if anyone can relate or anyone care or anything. Is just really hard and something I've been struggling extra with lately and idk what to do.


| Having to sit and write a big bunch of text to show the person next to me to explain why I'm not saying anything while they're sitting there stressing and thinking I'm ignoring them and I'm mad at them or something bad has happened, like, I don't wanna have to do that every time. That's super stressful and I feel bad for the person next to me. Because if I'd just force some words instead of typing they'd have less stress, but I'd also be in intense pain, but, I feel bad, you know?


| Hi, OP. I'm sorry to hear about your problem and even though I don't know much about autism and it's hard to imagine to me how you feel I still feel for you. Your story reminded me of this short, not saying it's the same but the character goes through some similar experiences:
https://youtu.be/NIbotIsLJWw

I also remembered the card the protagonist of the newest Joker had that explained his condition. Maybe think of having something similar to give people when you go non-verbal?


| >>830140
That was a cute short. It's obviously pretty different, but I get the, like, similarities in it.

Mhh. Maybe.
It's not like strangers approach me suoer much though. Where I live people don't really interact unless they know eachother. So idk how useful it would be.
But, maybe I should have something in my bag to pull out when it happens. For the people close to me to know.

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