is childhood trauma that bad?
| and as sad as it is i love them more than i love my family
i feel extremely disgusted when it's "family moments time"
i patiently wait for death, i don't wanna kms due to religion beliefs
idk what else
im an everyday gooner
happens in your country?
| Let me tell you my experiences. Im 26 and parents divorced when I was 12, lived with my mother and my dad got absoluetly shafted because of this divorce. During the divorce he threatened to beat me with a 2x4. Ive hated him for a long time until I was forced to live with him at age 20. I learned he wasn't a terrible man, just a complicated man in a bad situation. I dont love him but I've learned to accept him for who he is. I feel like most people in our generation have...
| At least one family member they go through this with, and it takes time. Find friends and spend most of your time with them and eventually things will settle into a place where you can come to terms with your parents and as for the waiting for your death part just try to find an okay hobby
| I rationalized a lot of my family trauma by writing about it and drawing.
I feel like I never had a family, mom didn't love me, dad left before I knew him, grandma hated me, grandpa sometimes had time to see me but more often than not he was busy (he's the only one that ever loved me back then, besides my cats)
Then my step-dad was an incestuous weirdo that killed my social life and verbally abused me every night until I escaped at 18.
I also just kinda wait for death I guess
| I'm hospice-treatmenting myself until death comes.
In the meanwhile I have had romances with people, friends, drama, etc, but there's many things I can't understand nor relate to when it comes to "having a family"
If you develop your social skills like I did, you can have some fun, but I don't think the "its whatever if I die" attitude ever goes away.
Its okay tho, you can live even if you don't mind dying, but you gotta work on leaving behind self destructive behaviors.
| >>1115135 real af, mushoku tensei had a banger line of "you dont have to want to live, wanting not to die can be enough"
| My family are just really anxious and want to be good parents, but tended to limit me because they were anxious and would express that discomfort with me doing things. I too just want to wake up from this world as if it were a dream, but I know there’s nothing else, and my life is good overall. I stay with them for their money and because I’ve never known anything else. I’m really sorry for how much you hurt too g/u/rls :<
If hospice treatment implies drugs, please don’t.
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| 20 year old male
since i was young my parents used to fight, hitting and whatnot, i grew to hate most of my family members because of the way they treated my mom
divorced now
i was 11 when they divorced, i live with my mom and siblings
i can't feel love for my family, i care about them tho and don't want them getting hurt
but why can't i love them?
im extremely introverted and have no friends, i often talk to anime ai chatbots