What's on your mind? 2
| I'm debating switching jobs and am trying to gauge the pros and cons of staying at my semi-unethical ethical hacking job where we're grossly underpaid, or taking my aunts offer of working at her new store.
The pros are that even though I only work 30 hours a week at my aunts place I still get paid more at the end of the month than my current job.
| The cons are that I'll have to get up at like 5 in the morning to get to the store in time for opening unless I find a new apartment closer to work. I also won't be growing or maintaining any IT skills while working there.
So I get more days off, more money but still not that much more, and I don't have to deal directly with any co-workers. But I kill whatever social life I have because I'll have to go be asleep at like 9 at night.
| after a case of soul death, it may have been partial. i am left with soul pain. emotional suffering. dystopia vibes. i gave up
| >>1073705
I'm sorry to hear that. I don't know what to say except I'm sorry and that I've been there but barely climbed out of that mindset, at least for the time being.
| >>1073705 That's tough, boss. Sending good vibes your way - it's a tough road to travel, but I hope things will look up for you soon!
| I got diagnosed with DID (Dissociative identity disorder) and it sucks. I really wanted to believe I was just weird, but it's real and it's eating at me constantly. I have no one in my life I can talk to about it. My sisters are putting boundaries about it saying I can't talk about it with them. My mother makes jokes about me being a psycho. I don't know what to do. I'm glad I'm getting help, but I feel trapped. There's a whole side to me I have to accept now...
| The only thing I have to look forward to is therapy. But that's only one hour out of the entire week. It's the only time where I feel normal and accepted, and safe. I don't feel safe at home, I don't feel safe with my family. They all hate acknowledging hardship and choose to pretend it doesn't exist. It works for them, but it kills me inside because I need closure and they hate that. It's always my fault, and now I have this big heavy diagnosis I have to act like doesn't exist
| I already can't get a job, it's been years and years since I was in school last. How am I suppose to be out and about when there's a chance something's going to impact me and suddenly I don't know where I am or what I've done or said or been. How can I keep being a person like this. And this condition is so demonized in media, it's not something I can explain to people. I have to just keep it inside and pretend I'm perfectly normal without falling apart
| I just want to be independent, have my own source of income, and make friends. But I have a genuine phobia of men and I've been a NEET for years...
I want to get better but I just can't get that support. I want to have my own place, I want to experience life. Instead it feels like I'm being kept captive. I can't drive with this condition, and I can't afford a bike. Heaven forbid I go walking outside or else my mother goes on about safety from the outside world
| I just have to keep pretending to be human when I no longer feel like one. I'm falling apart but I want to keep going, I have to keep going, I don't want to stop, but it's so hard but I want to live I have to live but I keep getting told and diagnosed with everything wrong with me and it's like the world wants me to just curl up and die but I want to live I want to LIVE I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE I WANT TO LIVE.
| >>1073860
yeah that sounds insane. I get the fear, But they shouldn't be the ones assessing the risk for you. Your probably doing better than what I could manage if I was handed the cards you have
It's kinda trite, but If I knew you IRL i'd give you long hug. I hope you keep going g/u/rl
| >>1073860
uhm, and how do you know it wasn't a misdiagnosis?
the only lead is that you suddenly hallucinated that DID is demonized in the media, which it's fucking not. and even if it is, people can be talked to, you know?
| >>1073873 Thanks g/u/rl…
>>1073890 Okay what? First of all I know it’s not a misdiagnosis because I went through the entire procedure and have since repeatedly asked my psychiatrist if maybe there was a mistake only to be told there’s no chance.
Second, yes it fucking is?? The first thing the average person thinks of for this stuff is stuff like the movie Split. There’s games, movies, books, where there’s the “evil alter” and whatnot.
| Like I was quite literally reassured by my therapist and psychiatrist that it’s not what you see on tv or in movies. If I was hallucinating it being demonized then why would that be a constant thing.
And also like, you don’t know my family. I’ve tried and tried and tried to talk to them, but unless they’re willing to listen then it won’t work. Believe me, I want to believe I can talk it out and I will do so, but it can’t work if they don’t listen to me
They’re completely shut off
| My family needs to be willing to put in the work to listen and understand, but they refuse to because it’s “upsetting.” You can’t force people to change or do things you know. I just have to hope with time they come around to listen…
Every time I try to talk things out with them they either lash out or walk away from me or tell me. I’m 17 years younger than my siblings, they don’t exactly see me on an equal level as them…
| *tell me it’s upsetting to talk about this and they don’t want to hear it
| There's a teenage girl at my work who is stalker-level obessed with me, to the point where I not only regret ever saying hello to them, but am about to quit this job to get away from them. They show up on their day off to basically hover around me while I try and work, and do the same when they are working. I'm lucky that they don't have a car because otherwise they would legit follow me home. Being polite about it hasn't worked, and management won't help. Time to gtfo.
| recently found out that a friend of mine has also started to dislike a mutual friend due to a recent bad attitude shift. i'm not crazy and being a bitch yippee!!!
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| Yapping is good for the soul. Sometimes, screaming into the void works just as well.
Last time I made this thread, I was boasting about the number of TTRPG campaigns I was doing! Turns out my main one is about to be axed because most of the table got hit with scheduling issues! The curse of planning tabletop as an adult...what's on your mind, g/u/rls?