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| >>1034647
I discovered it after failing out of college and the constant loneliness had been with me for a long time. I’m really glad to post with you. It makes me feel happy and nice, and that’s because of the nice g/u/rls like you I post with.
I had trouble understanding your post. I’m sorry about your grandpa if you were close. Maybe you can be a good parent one day. I’m not really fertile but I really want to be like that. Promoting doesn’t mean suicide does it?
| Because I really want you to be happy, and whatever you look like, even literally shrek, I would really like to kiss you some day, silly as that is, I just want to get across to you that you matter to me. I hope we can make each other smile again for years to come. I guess I’m not so clever tonight. Have sex and have fun ; D
| Knowing other people is suffering make me feel good, thank you gurl
| The only right way to live is to figure out more ways to suffer, happiness is blind
| >>1034654 if you ever talked with cat, doll or so, its possible we had a lot fun "^^
Ohh.. i never learned grammar tbh.. About grandpa, he was working in governments industry, he never studied uni but he wws honestly still smart And he respektem smart people i believe he wished to see mě get diploma.. but well yes i studied 2 years longer And he died sadly.. no promotion mean getting diploma
| >>1034673 its not suffering in real mean but more like mix of nostalgie, masochism, perfectionism and inner void over succees
| >>1034972
You should be smart just like he was! I think that’s really important even if you can’t be as smart. My grandpa’s last words to me before he died were that studying is really important. I’m back in college but so tired…
Hope you’re on a good path in life cutie
| >>1035023 sorry for these typos i was writing from one phone with broken screen while my phone was at refundation but now is all fine.. if i can be honest there exists smarter people as him of course, but for fact that he had only high school, and count of people what he managed etc. he was really successful i believe, this wouldn't be possible in 21. century tbh.. if i can be honest i didn't saw him while dying directly or last words.. i visited him 2-3 days in hospital before he
| died. than i got only sms from mom about this that he is dying. but it was free days and honestly with my "hikki style" i was sleeping while day.. i did wake up already when he died shortly probably.. 18:xx or something.. honestly i can't remember anything straightforward said to me.. but truth is that i feel somehow disconnected maybe and emotional flat.. i remember that was mad to me few times too.. but what i can do i guess.. but somehow i wished he could see it.
| he really loved hockey, (well it never will be me xD) but when he was dying there was iihf in tv, and he was just emotionless about it that he didn't care.. i little doubt how much he was in touch with reality, it wasn't clearly sudden dead but he was also bedridden over year.. everyone somehow knew it will happens, and if person is left in bed for care of others only with tv.. i somehow understand it little..
| today finally died dog what i scared about last 8 years.. almost same time i'm here on /u/.. i feel sad it wasn't different order.. if would die dog first, than promotion and than would die grandma.. sadly world don't works as this.. i will starting care about my physical healthy.. and i feel i will try do some changes maybe.. but i will stay here of course.. and telling once per while things what happens..
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| I feel completely lonely since fp abandoned me again but i feel really need to share my thoughts.. i discovered this board as high schooler but today I'm finally promoting.. my grandpa sadly died meanwhile and i did become totally alone where i could share this success which sadly really hurts me but what i can do
Honestly you can try hurt me but i feel selfish happiness that I'm not alone, and that someone know about me now
I won't leave /u/ I'm still there
Thank you