Post number #1028309, ID: 13ce29
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Ahem. Gurls, I noticed my diary thread got slid off, and I’m feeling a little overwhelmed and want somewhere to write- AND I notice lots of you love Ukraine- so I’m making this thread dedicated to diaries AND support and love for Ukraine and Ukrainian culture!! Fun for EVERYONE! Russian gurls can just pretend to be Ukrainians- I love you too and I don’t want you to fight ok!
Post number #1028310, ID: 13ce29
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Blue on top and yellow bottom Ukrainians are not forgotten! I think that they deserve joy Whether gurls or even boy! I like that they try a lot In the summer it must get hot! I will cheer them on and on In the night soon comes the dawn Happy land with low corruption That’s a thing for which is gumption They have rivers and a sea But knowledge is their best thing to me So long as they learn and try their best I am sure they’ll pass their tests
I love you!
Post number #1028329, ID: e1d7dc
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I had some visitors yesterday so we went and had a suprisingly good time at a local museum which I've never gone to before where I tried on one of those heavy old diving suit helmets and boots. After that we went to a cafe where I had a sandwhich and a green cake with coffee. Cozy fun vibes all around!
Post number #1028364, ID: a9f102
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Is it rude to complement your diary? I’m always happy to find nice things but I don’t particularly write mine just for the reactions you know? I don’t want you to feel violated. That sounds really fun!
I met up with a friend who really made me feel good, and ate really well. I wish I didn’t spend so much time when I’m tired. I think on my phone and videogames mostly I just while it away and feel awful.
Post number #1028365, ID: a9f102
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Was reading anti sex stuff again and my angry political friend’s proclamations which always make me feel bad because I agree and still feel bad and don’t want to do them. Ended up masturbating to some pornography I find positive and pleasant, feeling good. Going to get to bed on time
Post number #1028426, ID: 13ce29
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Did that but slow morning again. Apparently they’re having a job fair? Guess I should attend huh. Didn’t dress up but at least I can ask what they’re looking for idk seems like a waste. Morning weather was beautiful.
Post number #1028487, ID: 13ce29
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Lunch was nice. I feel full. And whole. I’m going to do English work then head home.
Post number #1028507, ID: a9f102
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mmmm tasty dinner. QUICK gaming break time : D
Post number #1028518, ID: a9f102
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It wasn't quick : ( I go through phases where I delete my games but it doesn't help. I made a schedule but I haven't followed it once. I felt good when my friend called me yesterday but I can't just go call him every day. I hate how I can never enjoy anything- it's always a binge I feel sick at the end of. I'm going to delete it.I'm not going to spend more than 30 minutes playing games per day? who knows if that's realistic. I wish I cared when I get like this.
Post number #1028550, ID: a9f102
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I’m awake! Slight head ache. I wonder if I should go to the dentist some day or neurologist. Sounds annoying… my sister takes a drug for her migraines but she still isn’t super effective and I don’t really want to be her. I feel ok :)
Post number #1028579, ID: b017ce
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fapping my boner
Post number #1028580, ID: a9f102
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Today was ok. Still more to do!
Post number #1028659, ID: 13ce29
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I was on my phone a lot yesterday but I talked with my friend about how important self respect is and I really agree. I’m totally having lots of caring about myself today- I even shaved and wore more than a t shirt
Post number #1028676, ID: 9d497e
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Kinda not doing my study time- I think I’ll have a more cheerful update soon though!
Post number #1028789, ID: 6231bc
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I just did TWO assignments I love thinking I’m important! But now I’m slipping. Breakfast was tasty. Going to learn to shave better so I’m not bumpy and sore all the time : )
Post number #1028790, ID: b017ce
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thinking about fapping my boner
Post number #1028934, ID: a9f102
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I’m a little sad a submitted something late yesterday, but I’m still feeling important and capable. I ate some really good food today which I enjoyed. I liked talking to my dad and with how much he cares about me, I really feel like I can trust him. I don’t want to let either of us down. : )
Post number #1028972, ID: a9f102
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Stayed up too late- parents are annoying me. I still have nice plans for today
Post number #1028973, ID: a9f102
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Pulled up some great pornography and had a very pleasant masturbation. I was reading for maybe 7 minutes but I must have came in like the first minute of actual physical stimulation. Feeling really good. Feels like a good release too. : )
Post number #1028986, ID: efe9df
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tmi
Post number #1029001, ID: a9f102
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Had a WONDERFUL day ^^ I was so engaged, I’ve been blending all my food and drinking it in the car and I finished the anime supercub while I was driving in too!! Really cute and nice. Hmmmm I don’t know how I can ‘take a corner I never have…’ maybe it’s time to email some people I’m my field and see if they have advice or internships some time…
My kinda repressed study buddy irritated me. Idk not great spirit and I have no clue how I could ever inspire them….
Ok bed time!
Post number #1029015, ID: ac031c
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How do you blend food and drink with a car? Isn't a blender better suited?
Post number #1029047, ID: a9f102
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Hehehe great point gurl! Though I imagine you could fit a blender into the rim of your car wheels and elevate them in a really shitty arrangement ;)
Just woke up, downloaded some academic videos to watch on the car. I’m excited! Love taking myself and my world seriously so much omg.
Post number #1029056, ID: d1ede8
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Drive was awesome!!! And first class went great too! Just need to work on my wake up time a lil
Post number #1029086, ID: a9f102
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Had no energy after class. Talked to a friend and drove home. Really glad I did. Slept for 3 hours after getting home. Slept not in my bed, away from all the lights constantly in my room and felt waaaayyy better rested. Slept for 3 hours. Problem is I'm only starting to get my focus back at midnight, when I couldn't fucking do anything during the day I was too amped up and stressed. Now I'm going to do a good job on this assignment, but turn it in late. Again >:-(
Post number #1029087, ID: a9f102
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But why is it this way? I can never remember in my life ever really focusing and feeling at peace during the day. I only feel good at night. I hope the ADHD meds help if the pharmacy ever fucking comes through. I guess I could do biphasic sleep lol. My kneejerk response is that it's other people like my parents dominating my environment, but I've gone where there was no one else and got irritated and done something mindless like pace or leave. The other people is mostly an excuse.
Post number #1029090, ID: a9f102
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Asked my doctor (chatGTP) and she said the amphatamines will probably help. : )
Post number #1029119, ID: a9f102
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I couldn’t sleep til early morning so I am still tired now. I wish I could just get more sleep.
Post number #1029136, ID: d5530f
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Did I misunderstand something or are you watching videos while driving your car?
Post number #1029138, ID: 295d44
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Yeah! Multi tasking! But don’t worry it makes me drive the speed limit, and my phone is really up on the wind shield. Also this is highway driving.
Anyway going home. I can’t focus here but no more naps! I’ll work there I guess.
Post number #1029149, ID: b017ce
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fapping my boner
Post number #1029151, ID: a9f102
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My head hurts. Resting eyes.
Post number #1029208, ID: ee0e8c
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Made a list of all the changes I’m going to make in my life when I couldn’t sleep last night and drank a whole jar of Rao’s basil tomato sauce : D it’s only getting started. 2 homework’s to do then cardio to improve my energy, then I’m going to schedule a doctor’s appointment because my pee smelled really sweet this morning!!!
Post number #1029230, ID: 6ee7d1
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I dressed up nice today to feel serious but I also moved all the files cluttering up my home directory to subdirectories and now I can’t use campus WiFi anymore. Need to figure that out. I’m proud I went to the library reading room even though I only got like 10 minutes of work done. I forgot to put my head down and use work sessions. I’ll update my calendar with those. I’m enjoying this moment of quiet. Still lonely. A lil horny too. This world can be a beautiful place
Post number #1029231, ID: 6ee7d1
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I might need more quiet time in my day. I get so overwhelmed. Naps didn’t work but a few moments of peace might.
Post number #1029270, ID: b017ce
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fapping my boner
Post number #1029295, ID: ee0e8c
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Today’s theme-quiet time. Time to put my head down for a few minutes
Post number #1029337, ID: a9f102
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Got a little done last night. I think I’m definitely getting that overdue thing in today. I felt big and powerful while I was doing it, like I was important, which helped with the fear/discomfort.
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| Ahem. Gurls, I noticed my diary thread got slid off, and I’m feeling a little overwhelmed and want somewhere to write- AND I notice lots of you love Ukraine- so I’m making this thread dedicated to diaries AND support and love for Ukraine and Ukrainian culture!! Fun for EVERYONE! Russian gurls can just pretend to be Ukrainians- I love you too and I don’t want you to fight ok!